Searching for the Wizard

I am attempting to press pause on my mind for a few days while I wait for results from the dr. from my upper endoscopic procedure. In the meantime I am frantically searching the internet for some answer that is really impossible to obtain. I am not actually that worried, I don't feel like my health is in grave danger, but I do feel like I am caught up in the eye of the tornado. And I feel that there must be some root problem to all the health issues. And in this process I feel like Dorothy looking for the Wizard. My yellow brick road is the internet, but alas I have no good witch Glenda helping me along the way. In my quest for optimal health I am willing to try all sorts of things, different diets, different medications, acupuncture, etc...and of course they are all good things, but is one of them the answer? I have seen countless doctors, and they all will give me a different type of medicine for one thing or another, but it can't all be disconnected right? There has to be one underlying thing that is the cause of all these different ailments, there has to be, I am just not convinced that these issues are all separate. I am searching for some kind of medicinal wholistic approach, that must exist, right? The more I see different types of Doctors the more I start to feel like they are the men behind the curtains. They don't have my answers, or at least I haven't met one yet that does. They act like they do, they seem confident, but I guess science really is just trial and error much like every other aspect of life. I suppose I must come to terms with that somehow, continue my search and stay positive. Now, where are my ruby slippers?

Gluten Gluttony

I am mourning more than usual at the end of this holiday season because I know in my heart what doctors have been suggesting for years is true. I have a gluten sensitivity. I have unsuccesfully tried to go gluten free in the past and it never lasts more than say...a week?
Here is the thing about lifestyle change-it Consumes YOU. And inevitably I feel like a huge burden to those poor souls who are kind enough to listen. So rather than blab, bitch, and be unbearable, I will document on my blog. This isn't really an original idea-thank goodness other brave souls have gone before me so that I know at least I am not alone in the cyber world. Today my friend Becky found this blog that I adored simply for the title: glutenhatesme.com. Because that is how I feel. Gluten HATES me. AbHOres me. And it REALLY hurts my feelings, not to mention my head, my stomach, my chest...etc...
I feel like the best friend I have had all of my life died. Gluten. Everywhere I look there are places we used to get together. Gluten gave me bread, cake, cookies, every special event in my life-gluten was there. Birthdays, special dinners, breakfast, lunch, and treats. Sometimes we were alone, sometimes we socialized, but we were Always together. Always.
Right now it isn't too bad if I just stay home alone and pretend Gluten never existed. But if I venture out of my house the reminders are Everywhere. So today I am still in mourning. There might be a private funeral. I am not sure.
Today I made chicken parm. with gluten free bread crumbs. :-/ We shall see!